Passing time

 The world is bigger than America. The privilege that is associated with the thinking that what befalls America dictates the energy of the world. We want so much to be large when in reality we are small. To deal with the smallness and not make choices from the longing that comes with wanting to be big. Do we want desperately to matter in a human story that makes us feel tiny? I am not sure but I get that daily we move with certainty around the idea that the things we do matter. I am not sure they do. It seems that our existence is simply about passing time. The question is our we passing the time in a way that makes sense to us. 

macro/micro

The macro vs the micro. The private vs the public. How the lines blur between our imagination and lived experience. The search for utopia seems integral to the dreaming spirit. The hope that at some point it will all feel ok. That there will seemingly be a point to a daily routine that seems structurally meaningless in hollow. This is not to say that they're not good things. No, there are always good things. It just that good things sometimes don't erase larger feelings of a existence devoid of meaning in a macro level sense. Will we come to our senses and challenge the way we construct our world?

False Narratives

 So many narratives around division in the country. The division comes from those who want to protect whiteness and the way it has been entrenched into our systems. This is the dividing line is still the problem and it cannot exist as the line anymore

Resist

How do we resist? How do we not grow fatigued at the thought of resistance? Truth be told there are no fairytales or utopian end games. Where are born into a world that seems to be in conflict. The question is what side of the conflict will we be on? The conflict is waging and the days our moving towards an end point. What will I do before the end? 

fucked

Shit is fucked.. There does not need to be poetic language to draw a clearer picture. Shit is fucked and crumbling. Now, what does one do in the midst of that which is crumbling? Some, we move to control the micro and almost keep at the bay the larger nightmare that threatens to make it all seem so futile? I exist in the midst of futility. Constantly, questioning the meaning behind the meaningless activities that fuel our days. It hard to feel that this whole thing is not simply one big lie.

projections

The lost of the ability to distract. That why we hope to consume because to consume is to devour whole the void that screams at us in solitude. So, now we left in the midst of trash circumstances praying to deities to take pity on wandering souls. Yeah, we have always projected onto superheroes our true feelings about the powerlessness that is so fundamental to this experience.

grim

Like the world is really ending. Anxiety is real. We think it will return to normal but normalcy is just the ability to consume. What we have consumed is the lie that normalcy will return. No we have exited to the off ramp of dystopia. As nightmares make their mark on the daydreams that brought hope. No, hope is dead left in a the shallow grave. The future is grim.

fuck the media

The media is simply the tool of corporate elite. We have a massive campaign of misinformation. We are never going to have anything radical in reference to reforms for the masses will because the elites would rather let any form of revolution occur other than a progressive movement. We are fucked and it gives me an anxiety headache when I think about how unlikely it is for the change that is needed to ever be seen

exposed

The pandemic exposed how unprepared we are for the end. As death is constantly following us as we move through the days. The government is broken by design and the leaders have long sense jumped the shark. We are now in the shark infested waters of despair. No one is coming to save us and the movie does not end well. There will be screaming at the oncoming onslaught of a breakdown of the consumeristic privilege that isolates us from the fact that this shit is going down. We are on the titanic shuffling chairs while the ship is going down. We are in the midst of going down into the lake of alienation. There is no life jackets for a life on this planet. The tipping point will eventually tip us all over.

problems

The planet is dying!!!! Is this new information? Have people always worried about the fact that the planet is dying or more likely the planet is transforming and the human race might not be long for the journey. We have place ourselves at the center and maybe that is the issue. We are dying always have been and maybe that fear is the reason why we do fucked up shit. Trying to outrun the end. Trying to outthink the end. All of it leaves us grasping for meaning. The meaning is suppose to silence the fear that we are going to die and the planet most likely does not give a shit. The longing to matter or the false illusion that we matter might be the fucking problem.

freedom is a farce

What does freedom even look like? Getting free from the entanglements of the matrix. The matrix is a true story as we have been socialized to believe in it's fiction. The problem is we don't get out alive. We are stuck in the decaying reality of what is. What does it mean to be living at the end of empire? How depressing is it to long for their freedom of your ignorance and privilege? We want things to go back simply to a place of blind ignorance because to be alive is to be connected to the pain of awareness? Are you aware that you're alive to fact that you're dying. That this is all going to end probably before you hope it would.

Screaming

The notions of screaming into the wind. Is it even considered that the wind is indifferent? Who hears or more importantly who really cares about our screams. What does validation mean? After being supposedly heard does anything change? We seem lost in the midst. I seem lost in the midst. No, answer on the horizon.

the ideology of dumb fucks

Writing is pointless because the masses don't even read the written word. Communication is dead. Thus the communication of ideas through scholarship is dying. We are increasingly a stupid mass of people pretending to be smart through the support of positions classified as woke. We are dumb and the sooner we realize that the majority of our dumb engaging in the process of collective stupidity for sport the better our society will be. Shit, maybe it would not be better but at least we would be more honest about how stupid we really are . A trash collection of dumb fucks

The party is trash

The democratic party is trash. If they nominate some neo-liberal clown they deserve to lose. Also, no one is interested in pantsuit white feminism. The attempt to centralize white women angst at the center of woke feminist politics is not going to work. The identity politics of the democratic party will lead to another lost for people who think that the politics of the coast represent anything other than delusional self-absorbed politics learned on bullshit campuses brainwashing factories of higher education. The party is trash and is fake opposition masquerading as resistance. The shit is trash and we have to see through the bullshit.

obliteration

Would things be better if a huge meteor just slammed into the planet and obliterated human civilization? Would things be better without the virus that is human being. A bunch of self-serving assholes telling themselves stories about their significance as they daily engage in the dance of fake meaning. The majority of the shit we spend our time doing is rather insignificant and there will be no record of its foolishness once you die? The majority of us pretend to care. Self-absorbed losers pretending to be decent. A meteor would be within it purpose to knock human fucks off the face of the planet.

stop talking

Society is fool of people offering their bullshit opinions and perspectives. The majority of people should shut up and realize no one cares about your bullshit analysis about why things are the way they're. Your notions of rightness don't make them anything other than sad attempts as you  project your trauma and trash life onto the pages of other people's life story. Things we would be better if the majority of people would just shut the fuck up.