screaming

Screaming for something to believe in. There are limits to intellect. Limits to the questions of questioning everything. Everything is up for grabs as I try to grab for something beyond the pale of the accepted. Looking for everything and finding nothing.

paychecks

Paychecks can't come soon enough. Soon enough anxiety about going under will be replaced by temporary relief. Relief is really only temporary so temporarily paychecks will provide opportunities to check out. As we constantly check out checking accounts as diminished checking accounts account for frustration. Yeah, frustration is real as truth be told paychecks can't come soon enough.

conditional

Love seems so conditional. Love contingent on behaviors that make others feel good. I guess its good riddance to the notion that I will be accepted scars and all. All this time consumed in concealers covering up that which is broken.